I am in a very low spot

I am in a very low spot right now. I just don't see things getting any better. I have been basically unemployed since November, and no prospects, no nothing. I feel like I am just treading water. I feel let down in so many areas, and there is NO WHERE I feel like I can turn for help.

Be more faithful in Church...How can I when the church isn't exactly what it claims to be.

Find more faith in Christ and turn to him. I've tried that. I sometimes feel like I am talking to the wall and he's just an imaginary friend for grown ups.

I feel so bitter at the whole world sometimes that if something doesn't change, I am going to do something postal and end up in jail.

I don't feel like there is much hope of anything.

I didn't want to be HERE when I reached this age. I remember where I wanted to be when I was a teenager, and this isn't IT.

Something has got to change or I honestly have to say...I won't be long for this world.