Friday, October 26, 2007

Feeling Kind of Melancholy Today

I worked for about 10 hours today, just enough to make sure that I got in my 40 hours for the week. I am starting to have those dangerous thoughts about what I want to do with my life. I turn 35 and think that I haven't really done that much. Though I have been married for 11 years and I have 4 really cool boys who I love very much.

But I am like, am I just going to work at my dead end job until retirement, or go for the 'career' thing where I make a name for myself. I am thinking about getting a Masters in Business and then a Ph.D or DBA so I can teach at a University or Business School. I don't know. I understand and can absorb business, but I have never had the backstabbing backbone necessary to claw my way to the top like so many in business do.

You know what they say. Those who can do, those who can't teach. My problem is I have too much of a conscience, I don't want to DO some of the nasty thing you have to do like sell your soul to get ahead. I don't know if I am making much sense.

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