I have been taking anti-depression/bipolar meds for at least 7 years now. Sometimes faithfully, other times I will skip and I start feeling my mood disorder coming on. Of course I don't have much help from my extended family who are religious and I sometimes hear that if I would just have more faith in God, I would be happy and wouldn't NEED the meds at all.
So then I feel like if I were somehow stronger, or somehow BUCKED UP, or whatever, I wouldn't need them. It would in some ways be easier if I had a limp in my leg instead of this. Even after seeing my mom go to the hospital for depression, she still thinks all the med stuff is quackery. Just have faith in Christ, and it will solve your emotional problems.
So I feel so gosh darn weak that I have to take the things(meds) in order to feel normal, but they help. Without them, within about a week or so, I am so suicidal and bedridden, it's just awful. But still I wish I had the 'will power' to not need them
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