January 08, 2010 Frustrated

I am in kind of a sad and depressed state lately. I have been trying to get started in the Financial Planning business, but I am having a really hard time getting anyone to talk to me. I almost have all of my licenses and will be taking the Series 63 on Tuesday next week. I have been doing a lot of studying, but I sometimes wonder if all of it is in vain. I am SO FRUSTRATED. I don't want to be poor anymore! I am TIRED of always living paycheck to paycheck, or my wife's paycheck to paycheck is more like it. I haven't really made a cent a a few months now on my own. I have been helping my wife with her Avon business, but that is not the same thing. I feel so worthless and useless. Sometimes I feel so bad I feel like up and killing myself because I think I would be worth more dead with the insurance money my family would be receiving then I would be alive. I then sometimes think that if this thing don't start going, I will need to go get a boring 9 to 5 job. But at this point I am really thinking that I might just need to do that. Except that the ONLY jobs that seem to be available are SALES jobs and NO ONE has any MONEY to actually buy anything. It's really depressing.